i get anxiety when confrontation is happening anywhere around me. sometimes our neighbors scream at each other and my heart races. sometimes i can tell todd is about to yell at strangers (when he gets road rage) and i panic and tell him to stop. today i posted how sad i was about the Dave Ackerman - What BYU Students Know About Black History Month or whatever it's called (it is really disappointing because he made it, because of the answers shown, and because now everyone will hate BYU/mormons more than they already do). aaaaanyways, i posted that on my facebook and one acquaintance/fb friend wrote how "it makes sense since the mormon church has considered black people equals for 34 years" and then one of my mom's friends/fb friend said something about "joseph smith helped black people...blah blah." the acquaintance and my mom's friend don't know each other. that little start of a fight/confrontation on my fb page gave me anxiety.
tonight heidi and i taught a 201 review session where the projector didn't work for the first 20 minutes and some 8 students sat on the floor because there were not enough desks. i received several emails (some to the professor and some to the TAs) only minutes and hours from this review session complaining about the room size that they couldn't see, about the images that didn't work until part way through, and how the review session was counter productive.
counter productive? really? i taught you absolutely nothing about what was going to be on your test? nothing about what to look for? i didn't give you all the answers on a silver platter, only without images? look it up on your own computer! look at them in the text book! why is it my fault the projector won't work? why didn't you sit at the front of the classroom so you could see?
i will book a larger room next time. i already came 30 minutes prior to make sure the computer worked and the projector was set up and it still took longer than that. i'm sorry.
i get defensive when i feel attacked. also it really bothers me that people say things via email, facebook, every other technology that they would never say to your face. why can't we all just be conscientious about everyone else's feelings?
the mean comments people write on youtube videos would make me cry/die and never show myself again if people wrote those things about me.
long enough post. needless to say i deleted my fb for now and i know only my friends read my blog and care about my feelings. unlike ungrateful ARTHC201 students.
8 comments:
Hi Hillary.
I know that those people in the ArtHC201 and 201 classes can be TOTAL jerks- they act really entitled to your time and talent and expect you to do everything for them, and even then, they complain and sometimes cheat. Who does that!?!?
I just wanted to lend support and say that I empathize and have been there. I always booked the biggest rooms on campus so that nobody had any reason to complain. Try to get the auditoriums if you can, and use the mic. Sometimes you have to treat them like children.
You are doing a good job. Keep ur chin up.
ugh this makes me angry! I'm sorry Hillary! I wish I was there because I definitely would have given them a piece of my mind, just for you ;) oh, and also. that video...goodness I was appalled. Whyyyyy?!
p.s. love you. you're the best!
oh i agree with both of the previous comments. clearly, they aren't mature enough to be in college, if they're acting this way. kids these days feel so entitled to everything, when they won't even try to help themselves.
you're doing great, and if they can't see that, then they don't deserve to be able to go to study sessions to improve their chances of getting a good grade.
also, i was completely embarrassed to say that i graduated from BYU after seeing that video.
i hate the world and i will miss your fbook
Alicia, thank you.
All of you, my friends, thanks.
I just saw that video...I was like are you serious? It makes us all look so ignorant! I'm sorry people are giving you a hard time...I'm sure you are doing a wonderful job! I am going to miss you on FB. Luv ya hill!
they are all ugly and fat and stupid and gross and I will kick them in the shins. every last one of them.
you guys are the greatest.
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