It became instantly lonely when Megan moved to Arizona.
I remember when Janna moved after a winter semester. We watched It's a Wonderful Life and I hugged her goodbye and cried while Todd drove us home.
Megan has been a presence in my life, consistently nearby for ten years. I feel like I always take my closest friends for granted. When I moved from Bremerton I went to visit Jill and McKinsie nearly every month. Now that we all have jobs and school and are barely scraping by I feel like I can only count on seeing my best friends once a year.
Megan, I miss you. When all I want to do is cancel going to the gym, eat ice cream, paint my finger nails and watch the O.C. I can't call you anymore. You've only been gone a few days and you don't know how many times I have taken my phone from my purse to text you to see if we could do something.
Todd is so busy with work and classes and I had never realized until you were gone. He is gone most of the time too. I sit in my house feeling awkward and not knowing what to do. I have plenty of homework and housework to keep me busy, but that is not fun, nor a top priority. I've already painted my nails, embroidered several onesies, vacuumed, grocery shopped.
I went to call my mom because I like to talk to her when I'm sad, but she is in Australia for weeks.
I don't make plans with the people who do live here because I feel like I should be doing homework...blah blah blah complainy life. end.