aaaahhhhhhhhh

todd got a job today at a rehab/nursing center in provo. he is a CNA and i am his WIFE. and it's lovely. it's crazy hours...so...we'll have to work that into his school sched.

i applied to grad school. i want to get my masters. i don't want to do 18yrs of research thx. it's ok. i has almost a year to be a lazy a** bum. which I AM! todd comes home and is all "what'd you do today?" and i can say "nothing" or "got off work and watched 5 hours of the OC which makes me depressed (b/c i'm doing nothing and it's emotionally taxing...sheesh)."

so tonight i haven't let myself go upstairs where my warm warm bed and the OC lay...so i can make myself clean. i've been listening to musics whilst cleaning the downstairs. but now it's colder and the upstairs is where laundry is...but last time i tried to do laundry...i layed in bed and watched gossip girl. i am a sellout. and those shows make me feel like i should do drugs and sleep around. and be super self-destructive. then todd comes home and think i'm a CRAZY. but at least i've found the problem. so i'm downing my dosage. and being productive. i went to the gym 3 times this week and it's only thursday. lalala.